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30 for 30-Vibrate Higher

Hello everyone in blog land!

I know…It’s been greater than a year since I updated this blog. I’m not going to sit here and lie and say “oh yeah…I’ve been busy.” It’s not a lie though. I have been. Marriage, career, and oh yeah—a new purchase of a house! J That process within itself took over a year. I’ll blog about that process soon.

The point of this blog, while I sit here on my 2nd wedding anniversary, is a point of reflection I’ve had in the last few months.

My 30th birthday is in 2 days. It makes sense to be reflective of all the things I’ve done in the past 29 years. (actually 24 because my earliest memories come when I turned 5.)

I’ve done a self analysis of myself through my blog. It all started in 2013 at a time where I moved to a new city to start a career in my chosen field. I knew the struggle of getting to that point but at the moment, I was excited, nervous, and slightly anxious. I remember feeling those exact emotions last when I graduated high school, graduated from college. Honestly, with each major transition of my life, I’ve felt similar emotions. How I’ve dealt with them has varied. I’ve noticed when I’ve let my emotions overtake my logic and the stuff I’ve learned—it can be overwhelming. I’ve had days where everything is fine and days where it feels unbearable at times. What I’ve noticed is that these intense moments have kept me from being my best self. There were days when I wanted to blog and the insecure voice inside whispering “what if they don’t like it?” “you sound so preachy.” Etc. My husband, who has been a saving grace for me, has told me “Whoever who told you something was wrong with you—fuck them.” He’s right. The main person that I war with is myself, the insecure voice in my head. So to that voice, fuck you. I can’t allow you to continue to steal joy, creativity, hustle, shine, and greatness. YOU HAVE TO GO! To beat this voice, I have re-visited some tools I’ve used in the past to get back on track.

My tool kit stems from childhood really. I’ve always enjoyed reading, learning, and expanding my mind. I am looking forward to the 30 for 30 list I’ve created myself. I’ve also noticed that the things I write in my own handwriting I tend to achieve. To conclude, I’m looking forward to my 30s—revisiting and enjoying the things I absolutely love and creating new things. My greatest hope, if you still follow, is to continue this journey with me. I am hoping to re-vamp this blog to fit within the context of this new phase. I hope you continue to follow and learn to and watch me vibrate to my higher self.

3 good things:
1. Vacation! Spa time soon!
2. Celebrating my 30th.
3. Finally settling into our house and hosting our kick back

Vibrate higher,
Barbara

Don't look down

9/9/2014

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Happy Tuesday! Yes! I know the weather (at least in NC) is a little bit gloomy but be grateful! You are alive, you still have purpose, and are reading my blog! Thank you!

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Confession: I love roller coasters. In fact, if you were to take me to a amusement park--I will ride just about every ride in the place. I love the thrill of the ride, the rush of adrenaline I get coasting down the hill, and the impact of joy I get knowing I had the time of my life experiencing something that some people don't. However, if you can recall the first time you stepped on roller coaster or into any unfamiliar terrority, you probably felt a wave of emotions from fear, doubt, and anxiety. Like me, you possibly sought any advice or encouragement to bulk you up for the challenge.

An great example of this challenge comes from the Bible when Peter walks on water. (Matthew 14:22-33) Peter starts to sink when he stops focusing on Jesus. In short, whenever you stop focusing on the end goal and focus on other distractions, you will become discouraged and ultimately quit. Just like the roller coaster example, if you pay more attention to the drop or the screams of others, you may not want to take a step onto the ride to experience joy and more importantly, a great memory. The beauty of this example is it can be applied to whatever challenge you may be facing in your life right now whether it be a pending job promotion, weight loss challenge, relationship, degree, etc. It will not be easy but it will be worth it. I write this not only to encourage you but myself as well. :)

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In my last post, someone asked about the ADA (American diabetes association) walk and more information about where to donate. The link is below. I thank you so much in advance for your support! This cause is near and dear to me!

http://main.diabetes.org/site/TR/StepOut/StepOutContent?px=10182125&pg=personal&fr_id=9867&s_src=boundlessfundraising&s_subsrc=:sub_source

3 things-

1. With the exception of one, I have most of my teeth filled!

2. Bible study tomorrow! :)

3. My dad's coming to see me!

Also, I would love for you all to comment on more of what you would like to read about. I would love and appreciate your feedback and also of what you are interested in with my daily life, Christian life, and career life. :)

Much love to you all!

Barbara <3

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Adam Spencer

9/12/2014 08:14:31 pm

I never quite looked at this scripture if Peter in that manner before and it makes a lot of sense. When thinking of many of my short comings to date. Often when I am on the path to obtain my goal, I will look down at my foundation, and worry more about my environment more than the destination. That's when the quagmire of life gets me every time.

As for you Barbara, Don't worry, If Can find a rope and a plank, or anything that will keep you a float....You will get to the other side of the water.

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