30 for 30-Vibrate Higher
Hello everyone in blog land!
I know…It’s been greater than a year since I updated this blog. I’m not going to sit here and lie and say “oh yeah…I’ve been busy.” It’s not a lie though. I have been. Marriage, career, and oh yeah—a new purchase of a house! J That process within itself took over a year. I’ll blog about that process soon.
The point of this blog, while I sit here on my 2nd wedding anniversary, is a point of reflection I’ve had in the last few months.
My 30th birthday is in 2 days. It makes sense to be reflective of all the things I’ve done in the past 29 years. (actually 24 because my earliest memories come when I turned 5.)
I’ve done a self analysis of myself through my blog. It all started in 2013 at a time where I moved to a new city to start a career in my chosen field. I knew the struggle of getting to that point but at the moment, I was excited, nervous, and slightly anxious. I remember feeling those exact emotions last when I graduated high school, graduated from college. Honestly, with each major transition of my life, I’ve felt similar emotions. How I’ve dealt with them has varied. I’ve noticed when I’ve let my emotions overtake my logic and the stuff I’ve learned—it can be overwhelming. I’ve had days where everything is fine and days where it feels unbearable at times. What I’ve noticed is that these intense moments have kept me from being my best self. There were days when I wanted to blog and the insecure voice inside whispering “what if they don’t like it?” “you sound so preachy.” Etc. My husband, who has been a saving grace for me, has told me “Whoever who told you something was wrong with you—fuck them.” He’s right. The main person that I war with is myself, the insecure voice in my head. So to that voice, fuck you. I can’t allow you to continue to steal joy, creativity, hustle, shine, and greatness. YOU HAVE TO GO! To beat this voice, I have re-visited some tools I’ve used in the past to get back on track.
My tool kit stems from childhood really. I’ve always enjoyed reading, learning, and expanding my mind. I am looking forward to the 30 for 30 list I’ve created myself. I’ve also noticed that the things I write in my own handwriting I tend to achieve. To conclude, I’m looking forward to my 30s—revisiting and enjoying the things I absolutely love and creating new things. My greatest hope, if you still follow, is to continue this journey with me. I am hoping to re-vamp this blog to fit within the context of this new phase. I hope you continue to follow and learn to and watch me vibrate to my higher self.
3 good things:
1. Vacation! Spa time soon!
2. Celebrating my 30th.
3. Finally settling into our house and hosting our kick back