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30 for 30-Vibrate Higher

Hello everyone in blog land!

I know…It’s been greater than a year since I updated this blog. I’m not going to sit here and lie and say “oh yeah…I’ve been busy.” It’s not a lie though. I have been. Marriage, career, and oh yeah—a new purchase of a house! J That process within itself took over a year. I’ll blog about that process soon.

The point of this blog, while I sit here on my 2nd wedding anniversary, is a point of reflection I’ve had in the last few months.

My 30th birthday is in 2 days. It makes sense to be reflective of all the things I’ve done in the past 29 years. (actually 24 because my earliest memories come when I turned 5.)

I’ve done a self analysis of myself through my blog. It all started in 2013 at a time where I moved to a new city to start a career in my chosen field. I knew the struggle of getting to that point but at the moment, I was excited, nervous, and slightly anxious. I remember feeling those exact emotions last when I graduated high school, graduated from college. Honestly, with each major transition of my life, I’ve felt similar emotions. How I’ve dealt with them has varied. I’ve noticed when I’ve let my emotions overtake my logic and the stuff I’ve learned—it can be overwhelming. I’ve had days where everything is fine and days where it feels unbearable at times. What I’ve noticed is that these intense moments have kept me from being my best self. There were days when I wanted to blog and the insecure voice inside whispering “what if they don’t like it?” “you sound so preachy.” Etc. My husband, who has been a saving grace for me, has told me “Whoever who told you something was wrong with you—fuck them.” He’s right. The main person that I war with is myself, the insecure voice in my head. So to that voice, fuck you. I can’t allow you to continue to steal joy, creativity, hustle, shine, and greatness. YOU HAVE TO GO! To beat this voice, I have re-visited some tools I’ve used in the past to get back on track.

My tool kit stems from childhood really. I’ve always enjoyed reading, learning, and expanding my mind. I am looking forward to the 30 for 30 list I’ve created myself. I’ve also noticed that the things I write in my own handwriting I tend to achieve. To conclude, I’m looking forward to my 30s—revisiting and enjoying the things I absolutely love and creating new things. My greatest hope, if you still follow, is to continue this journey with me. I am hoping to re-vamp this blog to fit within the context of this new phase. I hope you continue to follow and learn to and watch me vibrate to my higher self.

3 good things:
1. Vacation! Spa time soon!
2. Celebrating my 30th.
3. Finally settling into our house and hosting our kick back

Vibrate higher,
Barbara

26 anyone?!

5/31/2014

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Birthday reflections

Happy Saturday everyone!

Well, today is the day! I'm another year older and hopefully wiser! :)

The days leading up to this day have been fun. I kicked things off with a birthday brunch with some co workers, I worked on Thursday, and yesterday I had drinks with the bestie! Today, in a few hours, I'll be hosting a birthday dinner! Yay for me!

My mind keeps reminding me how things were so different last year.

On my last birthday, the days leading up to it were not so pleasant. I had a panic attack, I cried my eyes out, I didn't have a lot of money to my name, and I remember trying to pawn stuff that was valuable in my eyes only to realize it truly wasn't. My life was in chaos because then, I was chasing a dream. The only good that came out of it was the dinner my sister graciously took me out on. She will never know how much it meant to me. That birthday was totally different than the Vegas trip I had planned for myself. :p

One year later,I am so grateful to say that dream is a reality. All of my physical, emotional, and spiritual needs are being met. I am working in the profession I've chased since high school. Are things perfect? Absolutely not but I'll take this day! I'm happy because I've decided to be and no one else is in charge of my happiness except me. Sometimes it's about choosing the higher road. :/)

Would I change the events that occurred last year? As much as I want to say yes, I have to admit I can say no. If the things did not occur, I don't know if I'll be the woman I am today. Out of that great struggle, great accomplishments were made. I got to depend on a source that already overcame the world. I learned more about myself in a short period of time than I had in awhile.

So today, while celebrating with family and friends, I will enjoying myself and appreciating all 26 birthdays that have fought to become the woman I am.

Happy birthday to me and the other millions of people worldwide who share it with me as well!

3 things-

1. The fact my sisters and I will be in one location today! I am so excited for that! It has not happened since December 2013.

2-My other family members who are coming today.

3-My friends,co-workers and special love who have made the days leading up to it today and today very special to me!

Cheers everyone!

Feel free to share on social media!

Love,

Barbara ^_^

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Adam J. Spencer link

5/31/2014 05:28:21 pm

that's was God's way of preparing you to appericate those of those of us who love you now. That and you know good and well, I will wont leave you hang on the celebration of the birth of such a wonderful woman go unloved, even stuck on some crappy military reserve station on the actual day =)

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